What I’m Listening To, part 10


The way these posts work is, I’m going to post the lyrics with my thoughts in between the lines like this.


Evanescence – Bring Me To Life (Synthesis)

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down, into my core
Where I’ve become so numb, without a soul
My spirit’s sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there, and lead it, back, home


It sits there, in the dark, in the deep dark, all alone.  Then, suddenly, a crack in the darkness.  A beam of light, an ethereal figure emerges, sweeping away the dreary darkness.  Things once again take shape and have meaning.  I am whole again and the world makes sense.  I feel the pulse of life and I feel the warmth of love.


Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I’ve become


I would rather watch my own blood drain from my body than be miserable like I used to be.  I don’t want to be what I once was.  I want to be better, stronger.  I need this feeling to last, to stay.  I need you.


Now that I know what I’m without
You can’t just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life


Please don’t leave me!  Please don’t leave me here to wither away again…


Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
Bring me to life
Frozen inside, without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are my life
Among the dead


It’s so cold since you left.  Why did you have to leave me?  Why did you have to go away?  Without you nothing makes sense anymore.  Without you I wonder if I’m even real, or if any of this daily numb ritual is even worth the effort.  You were – and are – the center of my world.


I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Don’t let me die here
Bring, me, to, life


Please don’t let me die.


Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
Bring me to life
Bring me to life

Advertisements

What I’m Listening To, part 9


The way these posts work is, I’m going to post the lyrics with my thoughts in between the lines like this.


Assemblage 23 – Skin

Identity sometimes seems fleeting
An ever-changing tapestry
But at it’s heart is the foundation
The very essence of our being


Do you know who you are inside?  I do.  Or at least most of the time I think I do.


Shed your skin
Cast off your chains
Feel the sun upon your face for once
And wash away the pain
Shed your skin
Be who you are
Unencumbered by the weight
Of hiding every little scar


Just be yourself, everyone else is taken.  Take everything that everyone expects you to be, their perceptions of you, and throw them out.  Be your own person, uninhibited, unbound, unchained.  Fly.


At times the self seems in transition
A mere projection on a screen
But what happens when you turn the lights on
And things are not as they once seemed?


Examining yourself, taking a good long hard look can be a difficult task.  But when a new piece of information comes along causing or forcing you to re-examine who you are, weather the storm until you find solid ground again, the journey will be worth it.


Shed your skin
Cast off your chains
Feel the sun upon your face for once
And wash away the pain
Shed your skin
Be who you are
Unencumbered by the weight
Of hiding every little scar

Who we are is always changing
A never-ending course of growth
But deep inside there is a pillar
Deep inside there is a soul


Or is there?


Shed your skin
Cast off your chains
Feel the sun upon your face for once
And wash away the pain
Shed your skin
Be who you are
Unencumbered by the weight
Of hiding every little scar

What I’m Listening To, part 8


The way these posts work is, I’m going to post the lyrics with my thoughts in between the lines like this.


Alanis Morissette – You Owe Me Nothing In Return

I’ll give you countless amounts of outright acceptance if you want it
I will give you encouragement to choose the path that you want if you need it
You can speak of anger and doubts your fears and freak outs and I’ll hold it


You can talk to me, about anything, anytime


You can share your so-called shame filled accounts of times in your life and I won’t judge it (and there are no strings attached to it)


You can let down your walls with me and share anything you want with me


 

You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving it’s my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return

You can ask for space for yourself and only yourself and I’ll grant it
You can ask for freedom as well or time to travel and you’ll have it
You can ask to live by yourself or love someone else and I’ll support it
You can ask for anything you want anything at all and I’ll understand it
(and there are no strings attached to it)


You can ask me for anything that you’ll need and I’ll give it to you


You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving it’s my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return

I bet you’re wondering when the next payback shoe will eventually drop
I bet you’re wondering when my conditional police will force you to cough up
I bet you wonder how far you have now danced you way back into debt
This is the only kind of love as I understand it that there really is

You can express your deepest of truths even if it means I’ll lose you and I’ll hear it
You can fall into the abyss on your way to your bliss I’ll empathize with
You can say that you have to skip town to chase your passion and I’ll hear it
You can even hit rock bottom have a mid-life crisis and I’ll hold it
(and there are no strings attached)

You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving it’s my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return


You can talk to me about anything baby because I love you and I need you in my life.  Let me be your rock, your shield, your sword.


 

What I’m Listening To, part 7

Celldweller – New Elysium (Zardonic Remix)

Decided to do something a little different with this one.  Thought of this scene in my head on my way home from work.  Lyrics in italics between parts of the scene.


I’m sitting in the passenger seat in numb silence.  “Are you ready?” asked the pilot, stern anger crossed his face.  He slammed the big blue launch button before I could answer.  “Set coordinates for New Elysium” he said to the computer.  “Acknowledged” came the computer’s cold, automated reply.


We are the young
Voices in unison, the ending has begun
A new kingdom come
Enter into this new Elysium

This new Elysium
This new Elysium


I felt the weight of the world press against me as the ship jolted to life and began its ascent to the sky.  I felt the tears begin to run down my face.  What was I doing?  What was going to await me where I was headed?  Oh yeah, because the Earth was dying.  And it was all our fault.  I felt the wind from the storm outside whip the ship slightly as we took off.  I began to sob even more.


Born of the earth, are we all condemned to hell?
We’ve tried so hard but we can’t save us from ourselves
Destined to die from the moment of our birth
So why have we forgotten everything that we are worth?

We are the young, the chosen ones
Voices in unison, the ending has begun
A new kingdom come, a new will be done
Enter into this new Elysium


As the ship entered orbit, I unbuckled my belt and floated to the nearest window and watched the Earth get farther and farther away.  I should have died there with him, but I was a coward and left.  I am worthless.  I am nothing without him.


Looking for hope but it’s often hard to see
It’s obvious the future isn’t what it used to be
We’re born of the dust and to dust we will return
So why have we forgotten everything that we have learned?

We are the young, the chosen ones
Voices in unison, the ending has begun
A new kingdom come, a new will be done
Sometimes we need reminders of everything that we are worth

The ending has begun

For me, for you
Enter into this new Elysium


I silently, angrily, floated back to my seat and buckled back in.  The pilot didn’t give me any notice that I had even moved.  I sat and looked out the window as Mars fast came into view.  “We’re almost home” the pilot spoke after what felt like an eternity in silence.  I felt sick to my stomach.  “You were the last refugee from Earth.”  I looked down at the floor in disgusted silence.  I survived, but I don’t know why.  And I sure as hell didn’t like where I was going.


Rise up from the ground, join our voices to the sound
The time has come, new Elysium, tear this oppressive empire down

Rise up from the ground, join our voices to the sound
The time has come, new Elysium, tear this oppressive empire down

Rise up from the ground, join our voices to the sound
The time has come, new Elysium, tear this oppressive empire down

Rise up from the ground, join our voices to the sound
The time has come, new Elysium, tear this oppressive empire down

What I’m Listening To, part 6


The way these posts work is, I’m going to post the lyrics with my thoughts in between the lines like this.


ABBA – The Day Before You Came

Must have left my house at eight, because I always do
My train, I’m certain, left the station just when it was due
I must have read the morning paper going into town
And having gotten through the editorial, no doubt I must have frowned
I must have made my desk around a quarter after nine
With letters to be read, and heaps of papers waiting to be signed
I must have gone to lunch at half past twelve or so
The usual place, the usual bunch
And still on top of this I’m pretty sure it must have rained
The day before you came


Everything was normal in my life before you arrived.  Then it was turned upside down.


I must have lit my seventh cigarette at half past two
And at the time I never even noticed I was blue


I guess I didn’t really notice that I wasn’t happy until you came along.  That I didn’t notice that something was missing.  But I’m still not sure if I should be happy that you came into my life or not.


I must have kept on dragging through the business of the day
Without really knowing anything, I hid a part of me away
At five I must have left, there’s no exception to the rule
A matter of routine, I’ve done it ever since I finished school
The train back home again
Undoubtedly I must have read the evening paper then
Oh yes, I’m sure my life was well within it’s usual frame
The day before you came

Must have opened my front door at eight o’clock or so
And stopped along the way to buy some Chinese food to go
I’m sure I had my dinner watching something on TV
There’s not, I think, a single episode of Dallas that I didn’t see
I must have gone to bed around a quarter after ten
I need a lot of sleep, and so I like to be in bed by then
I must have read a while
The latest one by Marilyn French or something in that style
It’s funny, but I had no sense of living without aim
The day before you came

And turning out the light
I must have yawned and cuddled up for yet another night
And rattling on the roof I must have heard the sound of rain
The day before you came


Purpose.  You bring purpose to my life, and without you, what reason is there to continue living?  To go back to this bland and boring and meaningless life?  To live a life without love?  Why should I bother?  What if I don’t want to?


 

What I’m Listening To, part 5


The way these posts work is, I’m going to post the lyrics with my thoughts in between the lines like this.


D. Lorean – Hardwired (Radio Edit)

Fate has called my name
Too late to start the game
But the price to pay
Is much too high now I see

We’re partners in crime
I’m a slave I pay no mind
My sin is my pride
Submit to you and then I bleed

‘Cause I’m
Hardwired to hold you, I can’t let you go
Hardwired to take you, deep into my soul
Hardwired to touch you, and crave your kiss
Hardwired to love you, what ever that is
Hardwired to give you, all that I have
Hardwired to live as, your weaker half
Hardwired to cry if, it makes you feel good
Hardwired to die, you just ask and I would

Sight has robbed me blind
Can no longer read the sings
Or figure out if I’m
The one you despise or adore

‘Cause I’m
Hardwired to hold you, I can’t let you go
Hardwired to take you, deep into my soul
Hardwired to touch you, and crave your kiss
Hardwired to love you, what ever that is
Hardwired to give you, all that I have
Hardwired to live as, your weaker half
Hardwired to cry if, it makes you feel good
Hardwired to die, you just ask and I would

So I cry the tears of a clone
‘Cause I fear a life alone
And I think it’s for the best
To play my cards close to my chest
‘Cause I’ve seen the other side
And there’s nothing there I like
Guess the only way to survive
Is self defeat and self denial


All of it.  Just all of it 😥


 

What I’m Listening To, part 4


The way these posts work is, I’m going to post the lyrics with my thoughts in between the lines like this.


P!nk – Try

Ever wonder about what he’s doing?


I wonder what he’s doing all the time, but it rarely does me any good to ask him.  I get an answer half the times I ask.


How it all turned to lies?
Sometimes I think that it’s better to never ask why


Or better to just not ask at all.


Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone’s bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn’t mean you’re gonna die
You’ve gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try


I’ve been burned more times than I can count.  Too many torches carried I suppose.  None of them hurt any less than the last one either.  If anything, the burn hurts more as I get older and my time runs out.


Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy?
Even when it’s not right


Falling in love when it’s not right is something I’ve done too many times too.  So foolish I’ve been.  But why is it so easy!?!?!


Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone’s bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn’t mean you’re gonna die
You’ve gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try

Ever worry that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you’re out there doing what you’re doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by, by, by?


Pretty sure I’ve just been getting by for a long long time now and I just didn’t notice.  Not until Marshal came into my life and somewhat derailed it.


Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone’s bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn’t mean you’re gonna die
You’ve gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try

You gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try


But in the end, she’s right.  I’ve got to get up and keep trying or else I’ll never find anyone.